He's Almost Here!

Well, this is my last post as a childless woman. This time tomorrow night, my son will be here.

I've had a pretty rough day. It's been very emotional, and just not at all like I had envisioned it nine months ago. I'm disappointed that I've let a person who doesn't appear to be worth it ruin what should have been an exciting and busy time. He definitely ruined today. And I let him.

But you know what? I'm going to cut myself a break. I'm going to try to not feel guilty. So what if I didn't have a traditional pregnancy, and a traditional "last day before being induced." Sure I'm disappointed that people I thought would/should be there aren't going to be there by their own choosing, but I'm not going to make them pay for it. I'm going to have the greatest son ever, and everyone deserves to know when he gets here.

It's hard to permanently let go of things in the past and how your life used to be, especially when you're pretty much forced to let go. Gone are the days of it being just me. I adjusted pretty well to having a dog, I can adjust to having a child, right? :) Gone are the days where my job is the most important thing I have going on. Gone are the days when I don't have anything else to do but obsess over a man who doesn't love me back.

Instead, I suppose my days will be full of other stuff. Grown up stuff. Stuff that's actually important.

Well, that's about all the self imposed pep talk I can take right now. It's about midnight, and I have to be at the hospital in six and a half hours. I need my rest since starting tomorrow, I'm going to be someone's mommy.

Jennifer will probably be "live blogging" for me tomorrow from my hospital room, so everyone can stay up to date with what's going on. Hopefully she'll be able to put some pictures up as well. I'll post as soon as I can!